For Gary

She watches as he slips away

she calls, but no one answers

Only an echo of the emptiness

that now surrounds her.

She listens to the pounding of her heart

as it races to match the pace

at which he runs.

She thinks she might have heard his voice

faint and far away

yet coming closer.

She feels a watcher in the night

And knows that he has touched her with his mind.

She watches through the window of her dreams

Confused, she wonders what it means

As he turns away in anger, an anger borne of pain

She reaches out and calls to him again:

"Open your heart, don't turn away

Open your heart, please hear what I say."

The mountains she has climbed

have left so many scars

And the wounds just get deeper with time

So she turns away

afraid to form the words

that will ease their pain

Running from the ghosts that fill her mind.

Though she tries to close the door

something stops her

The shadow that still hides alone inside

Reaching out for love that never comes

she hears him cry

But he pushes her away

His pain can't be denied.

She wishes that the memories

would leave her peaceful

So she speaks and shatters the years

of silence in between.

She waits,

but what is left to her?

There's no where, now, that she can turn

What, she asks, has happened to their dream?

She cannot love without him by her side

No one else can take his place

though many try

She pushes them away, shuts the door

Tries to live her life alone once more

and sits before the window

night and day

Hoping soon he'll come along her way

She watches through the window of her dreams

Now, she thinks, she may know what it means

But the past still leaves her hurting

And it's hard to face the pain

When she fears he'll never

come this way again.

(C) 1991 Kat Starwolf  All Rights Reserved