Letting go of the past has not been easy for me.  I was born looking back...

When the planets fell in the house of sorrow, dreams and long ago memories. 

In a sky full of tempests and thunder I awakened early to receive more than my share. 

The Dark Moon portended heartache which I have yet to outdistance.

Ancient memories sustain me through the long, terrible nights of loneliness;

a sentence I have inflicted upon myself for the crime of caring far too much.

My prison is knowing that I may never change.

The madness of a moment lost in time forever haunts me with its cold, cloying fingers;

wrapping around my heart, choking my Soul, draining me of life and breath and hope.

The demons stalk me in nightmares of pain;

torturing me mercilessly with their laughter at my ineptness,

my inability to pull myself out of the mire of hopeless desires.

I struggle to awaken from this endless night of torment. 

Conflicted, I reach out for love, for understanding, only to be abandoned yet again.

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